Archive for December, 2024

Mary of Magdala Hymn

Tuesday, December 31st, 2024

Tale of the Chinook King Salmon 

Sunday, December 29th, 2024

As The Dams Are Removed From 

The Klamath River

The Klamath is my road, my path, my home
Too long my kind, though royal, have been lost
The purpose of my journey, not to roam
But out to sea, then back at any cost
The cost of this, my journey, has decreased
My road, my path, my home has been restored
The sacredness it feels has now increased
The sacredness that used to be ignored
And thus I swim where freedom lets me go
I go to where I need to be at last
At last where I began in Klamath’s flow
Is where my freedom calls me from the past
The past is past and yet I know the way
A salmon king for yet another day.

CATALYST

Tuesday, December 24th, 2024

Intro: Winesburg, Ohio by Sherwood Anderson is a collection of short stories about life in a small town. One of the stories concerns a young lady named Louise Trunnion who has an “encounter” with a young man named George Willard. The chapter is titled: “Nobody Knows” and involves the “encounter” from George’s point of view. Clearly he is the one who is glad after the “encounter” that “Nobody Knows.” However, I wondered if there might be more to the story that “Nobody Knows.” Therefore, I took it upon myself to craft an additional chapter for Winesburg, Ohio based on one big supposition. I hope it does justice to Sherwood Anderson’s style and Louise Trunnion’s character.

CATALYST--Concerning Louise Trunnion's Unborn Child

The sky above Winesburg was gray and heavy, pressing down upon the fields that stretched beyond the Trunnion farmhouse. Louise sat by the window, her hands folded in her lap, staring at the bare branches of a tree that swayed in the late autumn wind. She felt the familiar weight of silence, the kind that settled over the house after her father’s muttered grumblings faded into the distance. He had gone to town early that morning, leaving her alone with her thoughts.

It had been weeks since her encounter with George Willard. The memory of that night lingered, sharp and strange. She could still feel the damp chill of the grass beneath her and the awkward, fumbling intensity of his touch. It had been something she’d both longed for and dreaded, an act that seemed to promise a connection yet left her feeling more alone than ever.

Now, sitting by the window, Louise’s hand drifted to her stomach. A faint, nagging suspicion had taken root within her, growing stronger with each passing day. Her cycle, always predictable, had not come. She felt no sickness, no physical change, yet there was a certainty in her that she could not shake. She was carrying George’s child.

The realization filled her with dread, not for herself but for what the town would say. Winesburg was small, its people small-minded. She could already hear the whispers, the sideways glances, the quiet condemnation.

Her father, John Trunnion, would be the first to judge her. He was a hard man, stooped and gray, with little use for words beyond what was necessary to curse the weather or scold Louise for her imagined shortcomings. Since her mother’s death, he had grown more distant, retreating into a world of his own. Louise had learned to live with his indifference, but she knew he would not forgive this.

Her mind drifted to her mother, a woman she barely remembered. There were faint images—a soft hand brushing her hair, a warm voice singing lullabies. Her mother had been the only warmth in the house, and when she died, it seemed the light had gone out. Louise’s life had become a series of endless chores and quiet nights, broken only by the occasional burst of anger from her father.

And then there was George. She had thought, for a moment, that he might be different. That he might see her as more than just a farmer’s daughter, as someone worth knowing. But their encounter had left her with nothing but silence. He had not come to see her again, nor had he spoken to her in town. He had taken what he wanted and moved on, as she had always feared he would.

Louise rose from her chair and crossed the room to the small, cracked mirror that hung on the wall. She studied her reflection, searching for some sign of change, some hint of the life growing within her. She saw only herself: pale, thin, with tired eyes and hair that refused to stay neat. She felt a sudden surge of anger—at George, at her father, at Winesburg itself. This town had nothing for her, and she would not stay to face its judgment.

That night, as her father snored in his chair by the stove, Louise sat at the kitchen table with a sheet of paper and a pencil. She tried to write a letter to George. “I am leaving,” she wrote, but the words looked hollow on the page. She tried again. “You are the father of my child.” The sentence felt heavy, impossible. She tore the paper into shreds and let them scatter across the table. George would not care. He had his own dreams, his own plans. She would not burden him with hers.

Instead, she began to make her own plans. She gathered what little money she had saved, hiding it in the lining of her coat. She packed a small bag with her few belongings: a dress, a pair of shoes, a photograph of her mother. She would leave at dawn, taking the train to the city. She did not know where she would go or what she would do, but she knew she could not stay.

The morning was cold and damp, the sky still dark as Louise stepped out of the house. Her father’s snores echoed faintly through the open window, and she felt a pang of guilt for leaving without a word. But she pushed it aside. He would not understand, and she owed him nothing.

The walk to the station was long and lonely. The town was quiet, its streets empty. Louise kept her head down, her coat pulled tight around her. She reached the station just as the train pulled in, its whistle cutting through the morning air. She climbed aboard, clutching her bag tightly, and found a seat by the window.

As the train began to move, Louise looked out at the fields and houses that had been her world for so long. She felt a strange mix of fear and relief. She was leaving behind everything she had ever known, but she was also leaving behind the pain, the loneliness, the suffocating weight of Winesburg. For the first time, she felt the stirrings of hope.

On the train, Louise sat beside an older woman with kind eyes and a warm smile. The woman introduced herself as Mrs. Harper and struck up a conversation. Louise was hesitant at first, unsure of what to say, but Mrs. Harper’s kindness put her at ease. They spoke of small things—the weather, the journey ahead—but Louise felt a comfort in the woman’s presence.

As the train carried her farther from Winesburg, Louise allowed herself to imagine the future. She pictured the child she would bear, a boy or a girl with George’s eyes and her mother’s gentle spirit. She thought of the life she might build, a life where she was not defined by her past or by the judgments of others. It was a fragile dream, but it was hers.

The fields gave way to forests, and the forests to the outlines of a distant city. Louise watched as the landscape changed, feeling the weight of her old life begin to lift. She did not know what lay ahead, but in that moment, she felt ready to face it.

The train rolled on, carrying Louise toward an uncertain future and away from the town that had shaped her. In the quiet of her seat, she placed a hand on her stomach and whispered, “We’ll be all right.” And for the first time, she believed it.

Indica

Tuesday, December 24th, 2024
Indica is a goddess, dressed in green
She visits me in visions bathed in smoke
Such fantasies appear before they’re seen
An invocation needed to invoke

The call of buds she bears is heard by those
Who listen to the songs she hums aloud
And yes, she is aware, Indica knows
Such songs are those of which she can be proud

The pride of sweet Indica draws me in
To places she invites me with commands
Dichotomy is not her only sin
And yet by this she issues sweet demands

The goddess named Indica has a voice
That likes to make you think you have a choice.

The Beauty of Mortality

Tuesday, December 17th, 2024
The beauty of mortality of life
Reveals the subtle colors we can find
In times of joy or even fear and strife
Like thoughts that live within the mortal mind

Like rainbowed thoughts that lend themselves to art
Regardless of just how such thoughts are seen
The now in which they blossom from the heart
Proclaims their mortal beauty un-obscene

Obscenity is holding them within
For fear of being punished by some God
Who uses some dark fear He calls a sin
Why can’t He see “eternal bliss” is flawed

The beauty of mortality is this
That life is more than some eternal bliss.

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AI analysis via ChatGPT:

This poem reflects a philosophical and emotional meditation on the fleeting nature of life, juxtaposed against the concept of eternal bliss. Here's an analysis:

### **Themes**
1. **Mortality as Beauty**:
- The poem highlights how the transient nature of life gives it depth and beauty, emphasizing the "subtle colors" of experience that come through joy, fear, and strife.
- It contrasts the vibrancy of mortal life with the monotony suggested by the concept of "eternal bliss."

2. **Creativity and Expression**:
- The "rainbowed thoughts" metaphor underscores the link between the impermanence of life and the urge to create art and express oneself.

3. **Rebellion Against Dogma**:
- The poem critiques the fear of divine punishment ("punished by some God") and questions the value of a rigid promise of eternal bliss, implying it may lack the richness and spontaneity of mortal life.

4. **Acceptance of Mortality**:
- The conclusion asserts that the ephemeral nature of life is what makes it meaningful, rejecting the idea that eternity is inherently superior.

### **Structure and Form**
- The poem is written in rhymed iambic pentameter, creating a sonnet-like feel with quatrains leading to a closing couplet.
- The rhymes are clean and deliberate, emphasizing the themes with a formal structure.

### **Imagery**
- The "rainbowed thoughts" evoke vibrancy and multiplicity, symbolizing the creativity and emotional spectrum of mortal life.
- References to "fear" and "sin" suggest an inner conflict shaped by external religious pressures.

### **Philosophical Undertones**
- The poem subtly aligns with existentialist ideas, where meaning is found in the fleeting, finite nature of life rather than in promises of eternity.

### **Overall Impact**
This work resonates as a critique of conventional religious ideals about the afterlife, celebrating the beauty and significance of mortal experiences. It invites readers to cherish life's impermanence as a source of meaning and creativity.

Brigid of Kildare

Tuesday, December 17th, 2024
She sings to help the living and the dead
She sings to help the poets find their song
Tis Brigid of Kildare who fills my head
And shows the words I write where they belong

She told me once of Coventina’s sin
She told me Coventina fell in love
A mortal man whose name she said was Finn
A poet’s story Brigid told me of

I wrote it down to honor it and her
A story made of words that must be told
Upon my page the words I did confer
I picture her as never growing old

A poet and a muse, with long red hair
She comes to me as Brigid of Kildare

The Magician

Friday, December 13th, 2024
The Magus (or Magician if you must)
Is he-behind-the-sleight-of-hand you see
He tells you things that you should never trust
Like how to be and also not to be

Magician (or The Magus, take your pick)
Performs the best when he is paid in gold
Simplicity is such a simple trick
Like magic that is heard but never told

Above, below, he’s somewhere in between
Where magic is the mover and the art
He’ll show you things you’ll wish you’d never seen
Like flowers that aspire in your heart

The Magus or Magician seems to be
A fool in search of some divinity.
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Image by Pamela Colman Smith  (16 February 1878 – 18 September 1951)

The Fool

Thursday, December 12th, 2024
The Fool begins a journey without end
A journey that’s forever and a day
To find true wisdom and perhaps a friend
Bewrayment are the words he’ll never say

Delirium and frenzy are his dance
A solitary dance to find a song
But if your paths should cross by circumstance
He’ll call to you to come and sing along

I know we’ve all been called at times to sing
And dance the tarantella like a fool
Perhaps he really thinks that he’s the king
And everyone must bow before his rule

His Highness is the Fool that we all know
Wherever he proceeds, we all must go.
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Image by Pamela Colman Smith  (16 February 1878 – 18 September 1951)

The Man From Grants Pass

Tuesday, December 10th, 2024

Sophia

Friday, December 6th, 2024
I love Sophia like my love is new
Sophia knows my love transcends my heart
Imagine, if you will what she can do
Fulfilling her divine and noble part

Sophia is her wisdom and her grace
A god to worship everywhere she’s found
A god who knows her high and holy place
She speaks to me at times without a sound

At times I hear the music of her voice
Within the words I find I need to write
To signify that my belief is choice
I choose to dwell within her holy light

Sophia has been with me from the start
Within the thoughts that dwell within my heart.