Sonnettics

Her loyalty, complete, belonged to me
when I was where I didn’t want to be
She knew me well, knew what I’d want and need
My body held me captive, so she freed
the man she loved by opening my heart
She’d done it once before: our very start
was when she saved me from a life alone
She gave her love to me and now I’ve grown
accustomed to her beauty and the way
she shares her love with me, and everyday
she takes the time to think of me, of “Us.”
I’ll make my point in couplet now, and thus:
I love how Kristin Mari rescued me
and if she does again, she’ll make it three.

You all evoke compassion from my heart
although I never try to make it start
It’s just a gift I came with and I’ve found
that I enjoy your beauty to surround
my life. I like to compliment your grace
or compliment the beauty of your face.
I know there’s more to beauty there inside
of you, but I’m just saying: don’t go hide.
My poetry is nothing without you
Sonnettics is a word you’ve made come true
I’ve said it once before, I love your voice
I’d always listen to you if the choice
was listening to you or music sweet.
This sonnet ends too soon, it’s incomplete.

Collapse within my arms, you needn’t fall
I’ll hold you up forever if I must
I’ll answer everytime you need to call
I plan to be the friend you always trust
We need to kiss, our hearts are full of love
Our hearts connect our words and make us feel
as close as knowing kisses are made of
the solid and the liquid; we are real.
I’ll hold your body with my arms. My eyes
will hold your eyes and wait for you to blink
That blink will let me know you want your sighs
to come because I love you and I think
your eyes deserve the best that they can get
and yes, I want my words to make you wet.

Go strike your head; don’t worry if you’re hurt
Someone will come and pick you up to mend
Maybe you’ll bleed into your city’s dirt
Maybe you’ll love a candy or a friend
Go strike your head and watch perspective fade
from clear and bright to smudged and dark, at best
Death only lasts as long as lives are made
and life alludes to what it will suggest
Go strike your head; no spirit in your brain
exists to tell your god that you have sinned
Feelings of truth will permeate your pain
Set yourself free into the cyclone wind
Magic is in the spells your ego casts
So, enjoy the fantasy while it lasts

She shines in mind and body, oh she shines
Her skin is soft and smooth and bears no lines
of gaudy wrinkles. Beauty from her beams
a ray of light she captures, and she gleams
By day she’s warm as sunlight on my face
at night, like stars, she takes me to a place
as far away from here as we can fly
a place my lover makes to satisfy
It doesn’t really matter where we go
Some country Diner works. They serve us slow
The time is ours to talk and build our love
The waitress wonders what we’re talking of
My lover says,”We come here every week.”
The waitress leaves and once again we speak

Green Lakes was heaven, when we took the girls
They swam or sat just off the beach like pearls
I still remember Maggie in the sand
I still remember holding Phoebe’s hand
We got them drinks; the snack bar wasn’t far
Our picnic dinner waited in the car
Like everyone around, we felt the sun
And, yes, we knew the lakes as where we’d run
I watched your muscles make your legs go fast
For now, Green Lakes exists within my past
And running at Green Lakes is just one goal
of what my future holds when I am whole
I want another picnic there with you
I want your precious girls to be there too

Time can be perfect when it goes like this:
Dreaming of Mari, her arms and her kiss
My time at the therapist went alright
My pain had subsided; I slept last night
I picked up my phone, called Daniel, my son
He liked playing soccer; today he’d won!
My boy sounded happy; my boy is good.
He works hard at school like he knows he should.
We’d just said “Goodbye;” the phone rang once more
My Mari was calling, just like before
Her voice made me happy; I love to hear
about her, about her. I’d love her near.
I promised I’d visit when I was healed
My love for my Mari is never concealed.

Love Forever Sweetie.

We parked my jeep and thought of all the heat
in Mari’s house, before we went to swim
We thought of Bruegger’s Bagels where we’d eat
DeRuyter was the opposite, was grim
DeRuyter lake was rough, the autumn wind
blew whitecaps toward the dam from which we’d leave
Like hell before the spirits who have sinned
DeRuyter offered torment not reprieve
We leaped into the water, cold indeed
Our wetsuits were as warm as we would get
Each stroke we took defined our subtle speed
There was no doubt that we were cold and wet
The island was our goal, I watched you go
You beat me there and back; I swam too slow!

We danced and walked the river, hand in hand
She let me taste her mouth, her tongue, her lips
We left each other just as if we’d planned
A future far apart and void of trips
And when the future came, I felt her fear
that this was just a repeat of the past
and threatened things she wanted to hold dear.
My feelings came awake again, and fast.
My memories of touching her were sweet
I still recall her art, and how she drew.
She didn’t seem at home in Texas heat.
I wondered why she loved me, if she knew
I felt the same, but felt beneath her love.
And now I wonder what she’s thinking of?

I want to taste the skin of just one more
One woman who has dreamed there’d come a day
When someone would release her, through her door
Then hand in hand we’d kiss and run away
I know a lot of places we could run
then sit and feel each other, hand to hand
by lake or hillside, talking one to one
clean free of expectations or demand
I only want to give her all of me
I only want to take what she will give
I want to call it love if she’ll agree
That loving is the “what” she wants to live
I want to taste her mouth and all it’s skin
I want to let her take me slowly in.